I asked myself some hard questions about motherhood, identity, loneliness, healing, and being a single mom — and decided to answer them honestly.
Not the polished answers. Not the “I have it all figured out” answers.
Just the real ones.
What’s something about motherhood you wish people warned you about?
Truthfully, there’s no way someone could truly explain it enough for someone who isn’t a mother to really understand the true depth of it. However, I wish people warned me how you never truly have a break as a mom.
Mom is number one. Mom is always needed.
Unlike dad — the dad could just be sitting there doing nothing and the kid is still going to want mom. Moms get no breaks. It’s so demanding and absolutely exhausting.
What’s a moment recently where you felt like you were absolutely crushing motherhood?
I felt like I was really crushing it when my uncle mentioned how well my daughter listens.
Granted, we were around family and she puts this front on for them like she’s so well behaved. However, I know kids that don’t even do that. So, it felt like a win to me.
What’s a moment recently where you felt like you were failing at it?
This whole “no” phase that my daughter is in right now has been making me feel like I’m failing.
It’s a constant “no,” with a foot stomp, and just always attitude. Everything is an argument, a fight.
What part of yourself do you miss most from before becoming a mom?
I miss being able to just do what I want when I want to. Going and doing anything I wanted.
Even just a trip to the grocery store is a whole haul with a 2.5 year old.
What’s something about you that people online probably misunderstand?
I’m sure a lot of people thought that I was bragging about being a single mother because I posted it so much.
However, I honestly was just really traumatized and I was trying to figure out ways to connect with other single moms who maybe felt like me online.
After the horrible backlash I would get trying to do this on social media the ways that I did before, I cut back. Now, I mostly just use my blog and I share my posts on my social media pages for it.
Not many people seem to hate on me for it now, but I think people thought I was trying to brag about it — I definitely wouldn’t brag about something that made me feel so awful.
I never imagined this life for myself, but I talk about it because it helps me heal.
What’s something motherhood made you better at?
It’s broadened my empathy and understanding for other women, other people. Not even just moms.
I feel like I understand people more than I used to and it’s made me more open minded.
What’s something motherhood completely humbled you on?
Motherhood has made me realize I’m kind of lazy. I put a lot of things on the back burner.
However, one thing I always put first and I am not lazy about is my daughter and making sure her needs are met.
What’s one thing you wish more people understood about single moms?
It’s not something to feel sorry for someone for, but it’s also not something you should see and think is easy.
Just some basic respect.
Don’t compare us to moms with crappy dads as spouses — it’s a whole different thing.
We really do it on our own. Pay the bills on our own. Take care of everything on our own.
Have you ever felt lonely in motherhood even when surrounded by people?
I felt the loneliest I ever felt that first year and a half after my daughter was born.
It was hard to be accepting and understanding of my new life.
What’s a small moment with your daughter recently that made you stop and think, “I never want to forget this”?
My daughter hugs me and says, “mommy, mommy!”
It makes me melt.
What’s something you’ve had to grieve since becoming a mother?
That life would never be the same as it was before.
What’s something your daughter has taught you?
She’s taught me that it’s okay to take your time with things sometimes. Not everything needs to be such a rush.
Especially in relationships.
Do you think motherhood changed your identity? In what way?
Majorly.
Motherhood has made me more creative. Motherhood has made me want to explore my creativity more.
What’s something people don’t see behind your social media posts?
They don’t see that I’m a working mom.
I work full time. I manage a house, a social life, and so on… I’m busy. I always have things I could be doing.
If another overwhelmed mom was reading this right now, what would you want to tell her?
It gets better.
It’s going to get better. It’s all going to be okay.
Try to enjoy this time. I know it’s hard.
However, this is just a bad moment — not a bad life.
Raw Mothering 
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