Let It Burn: The Parts No One Prepares You For

There are some things you go through that change you so deeply, you almost wish someone had put words to it before you had to live it yourself.

This song… is that for me.

It’s the song I wish existed when my whole world fell apart — but it didn’t, because I’m the one who had to live it first.

I’m okay now. I’m past it.
But when I wrote this, I wasn’t.

I went back to exactly how it felt — to a time a couple years ago when everything changed overnight. My daughter was only eight months old when her father left, and suddenly I wasn’t just heartbroken… I was a new mom trying to figure it all out on my own.

There’s a kind of pain that comes with that — the kind that sits in your chest and doesn’t let you breathe right. The kind that doesn’t give you time to fall apart because someone still needs you.

I remember thinking over and over:
Let it burn. Let it hurt. Feel all of it.

I didn’t try to numb it.
I didn’t try to pretend I was okay.
I let myself feel everything — every piece of it.

And I didn’t hide it either.

Not because I wanted to shame him, but because I live in a small town where stories get twisted before you even get the chance to tell your side. Where people fill in the blanks for you… and more often than not, the blame lands on the mom.

So I told the truth.

Because I was already carrying enough — I wasn’t about to carry a version of the story that wasn’t mine too.

This song isn’t about being bitter.
It’s not about staying stuck in the hurt.

It’s about what it takes to survive something like that —
to feel it fully, and still wake up the next day and be what your child needs you to be.

It’s about falling apart… and still holding it down.

And maybe, if you’ve ever been there too —
this is the song you needed, just like I did.

Because this is what Raw Mothering is — telling the truth about the parts no one prepares you for.

I recommend listening all the way through.

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Let It Burn — Lyrics

Let it hurt…
Let it break your heart…

Feel every sting
Every shattered part
Do what it takes
Just to make it through
Even when it all falls apart

Let it burn
Burn it all to the ground
Let the smoke roll over this whole damn town
Let ‘em all hear what he put me through
Yeah, I ain’t hiding what he did to me and you

They all know now
How he rolled out
Took my heart and drug it through the worst
Didn’t think twice
Didn’t even try
Just left me here to figure it all out

Feels like fire in my chest
Like it won’t let me rest
Every breath’s a second guess
Of what we were

So let it hurt
Let it break your heart
Feel all the pain, fall apart
Scream it out loud
Don’t hold it inside
He walked away, left me here to hold it down

Let it burn
To the ground
Let every whisper circle this town
‘Cause he hurt me
Yeah, he lied
And I’m still the one showing up every night

I still wake up
Throw on some makeup
Wipe my tears before she sees my face
Get her dressed
Do my best
Hold it together while my world’s outta place

Coffee’s cold
Bills stack up
Silence where there used to be his truck

Feels like lava through my heart
It filled my chest
Turned me cold to the world
Wouldn’t trust a soul

They all know now
What he walked out on
A little girl who still says his name
And every night
I hold her tight
While I’m the one taking all the blame

So let it hurt
Let it break your heart
Feel all the pain, fall apart
Scream it out loud
Don’t hold it inside
He walked away, left me here to hold it down

Let it burn
To the ground
Let every whisper circle this town
‘Cause he hurt me
Yeah, he lied
But I’m still standing here tonight

You may not ever see
You were hurting more than me
Takes two to make a family
You broke that
And it took all of me
To pick up the pieces

No closure
It was just over

So let it burn
To the ground
Let every whisper circle this town
‘Cause he hurt me
Yeah, he lied
But God knows how hard I tried

Yeah it hurt
Yeah it broke my heart
Still felt every piece fall apart
But I stood up
Didn’t let it win
For her, I’d do it all again

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